Shadows swirl,
filling my nose and mouth,
covering my eyes, my ears,
'til all I see is darkness.
And I'm suffocating.
It drags me down,
filling my lungs with lead
and my head with hate.
It takes me prisoner,
no death sentence,
just everlasting nothing.
I can't breathe.
It parts just long enough
to let me see the sun
get used to the warmth...
before returning
It latches onto my heart,
fills my lungs,
it drags me down...
It makes me feel weak,
a breaking doll with cracking limbs
and fading paint.
It saps my strength,
yet still I hold on.
Faded and cracking
But not broken.
Not yet.
I am broken.
Irrevocably scattered into shards,
on the wind.
I cut myself off from you
so you could stop trailing
pieces of me,
like some sort of twisted game,
of pick me up.
You don’t have claim to me,
you’ve moved on.
So have I.
But I am broken.
Irrevocably.
Too afraid to be alone.
But too afraid to be a part of,
something beautiful again.
A dark carnival
Unused and broken down
Housing only lost
Hopes and once upon
A time dreams
Tarnished silver bars
Pierces many hearts
Holds to the journey
Of racing in circles
And getting nowhere
Beasts made of hollow
Plastic feel nothing
Race with fake music
And the too bright lights
Ever at their tail
Remembered laughter
Fades to the background
Nursing sore egos
And the shattered souls
Within haunted grounds
Ghosts of many once
Bright and hopeful dreams
Float in memory
Never to again
See the hopeful light